thoughts

i promised myself juz some time ago for a dear fren's sake (who doesn't noe) that i wldn't drink unnecessarily. well.. i juz had some, quite unnecessarily, n feeling really woozy. can hear my heartbeat in my head increasing in such decibels. it wasn't to drown sorrows or anything lidat though. this time a certain other fren is doing that, i'm juz here to keep her company.

n now, as i read jinx's blog's last entry, my tears started to pour. i always knew she played the piano beautifully n was really talented at it. either she juz nv realised it or the pple ard who have heard her play didn't give her half the credit she always deserved. perhaps she nv saw herself the way i always did. u see.. i'm happy for her. truly. and am glad she still keeps me in her list of pple whom she asks God to bless n keep. i wish her every happiness life can bring. and wish her true inner joy for being herself, that she embraces everything that comes along in life. perhaps things may not go back to the way they used to be. i juz wan to always be ard when she needs someone.

zero

expectations always bring disappointments. almost without fail..

darn.. i juz dun get it do i?!
no more expectations from me. period.

ghost of yOu aNd me

it's weird how some things have passed for 2 years n yet still surfaces in ur mind when u least expect it.

took me quite by surprise this time.

dunno why it still haunts me.

i swear i've gotten over it.

well.. perhaps not quite..

gum gum bubblegum

lalalala.. hey u.. (yes u!!) u noe who or wad i mean by the title rite? haha.. anyway i got this today: "always seek first to understand rather than be understood.." wow.. it's almost like an answer man. hmm.. i wonder...? could it be....? oh well..

so i nv actually thought abt it concretely b4 but this certain someone who quoted the above has indeed taught me many things since the day our paths crossed. it didn't really occur to me much till i heard myself saying these words to others. sometimes i think God really does work in miraculous ways so beyond our limited minds' comprehension. thank you.

took leave off from work tmr. though this day has been approved like more than a mth ago, i realised juz yest that it turned out it was quite a bad day to be on leave. kinda like a day where many things were happening n needed to be done. plus 2 new admin staff will be coming. sigh.. alritey.. full steam ahead from friday onwards.. dear Father, please grant me the strength n wisdom for me to always exercise integrity n excellent character in all that i do. amen.

beHind tIme

okies.. this is in honour of sick birdie..hey jass jass!! :) haha.. okies i haf not blogged for a long time.. not that nothin interesting's been happening.. prolly too busy.. (excuse!) or maybe i juz have too many things to say that i dun wanna bother..

anyways, got a msg from marc the other day abt the boys going into action again for paya lebar cup, wish them all the best, perhaps i can watch their 2nd match tmr. hmm.. think i muz make it a point to go cuz i kinda miss them.. haven't heard the crappy boys for some time already..

pple at work hav been really good to me. thank God for that. hope i can always do my job well.

bumped into yaqi today while on my way to ny for frenly with ling yun. it's been so long since i last saw her.. kinda lost contact when she changed her phone, so was really glad when i saw her. still somewhat the same, flamboyant n all.. n not working at the moment. time for me to make it a point to meet up with her n do some catching up! before she plunges herself into the working world again.. lucky girl.. so carefree now..

hmm.. think my life's been revolving around lots of changes recently.. cannot say i'm entirely adjusted to it all yet, i'll juz haf to get used to certain things. i always noe that the only constancy in life is change, but somehow i cannot bring myself to overlook the iminent possibilities that changes bring. how ironic. perhaps i need more time to deal with everything.

still seekin to be understood.. that's all..

unreason

no.. i'm not fine.. but thanks so much for asking..

i'm sick.. depressed.. stressed.. upset.. n worst of all misunderstood..

care n concern for others is seriously over-rated. perhaps it's time to denounce it.

maybe it's my time to disconnect from the world cuz tears only do so much.

一路北向

后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面
全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面
全都是我不对
细数惭愧我伤你几回

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
方向盘周围
回转着我的后悔
我加速超越
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧我伤你几回
停止狼狈就让错纯粹

周杰伦

hole..

i'm such a freaking lousy fren.. sucks..

sorry jinx..

Underserving

i came online thinking i had loads of things to put into words..
n now as i'm staring at this page i feel as if my mind's never been more empty..

someone says: pple move on into diff stages in life, with diff frens n diff lifestyle.. so u put those who belong in the past in the past..

i say: humans are mean beans n they hanker after wad's new, forgetting the old.. we all do that..

well.. whichever way u put it, we're juz such limited beings aren't we? cannot help it at all. juz can't. maybe i think too much.

Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Goo Goo Dolls

like a cloth woven..

today a dear fren of mine actually told me that some things have changed n are no longer wad they used to be. she feels that the days of openly sharing her feelings n experiences were over. n i didn't even see it coming. during our chat online i was thinking to myself: not like i intentionally kept myself from her such that we drifted wad.. did i? d 3 of us who used to be so comfortable together.. have we lost that in oblivion? sigh.. gotta fix this if we can.

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i noe this person who's suffering from dyslexia. she juz told me recently that it's not even mild dyslexia in her case. so i suppose she means she's severely dyslexic. i always thot there was only one symptom to this. like spelling ramble as ramdle and buona vista as bouna vista. during the course of one conversation unrelated to this matter, i learnt from another certain someone however that there are other even more serious repercussions to this particular disorder. the reason why i was so interested to find out abt dyslexia was this. the person in question really impressed me. she's so professional n confident in her daily work n all.. one cld nv have guessed it. well, still i noe she has many other things to deal with besides this, so that makes me stand in awe of her even more sometimes. quite an inspiration..

aRigaTo

ok, here's the photo we took at the sajc alumni dinner. my dearie classmate yanling actually took d effort to send this to me, how sweet of her.

well, there were only like 7 from our class who went, still it was quite a joy seein them, n all the rest of my bball mates too of course, juz too bad we didn't snap any shots.
so it seemed junyang was d ultimate centre of attraction but we didn't really feel as ultra 'xinfu' as some of the near screaming waitresses n younger juniors who were waiting anxiously behind the camera person who was taking this shot so that they can start to mob him haha.. it was great seein some of class 2A4 again, wish there were more who came though. oh.. jy's still shorter than me.. aiyo.. tsk tsk.. haha so mean to still tease him abt this even now.. well, i kid..


so here's my thank you list for the day:

thank yoU for everything.. the trouble dolls n heartfelt chats n eating outs n shopping sessions n sharing n trust n joy u bring to me all these years..

thank yOu for the pulley n key chain n lollipop n smiley n minna n the fun n the laughter yOu brought to my life..

thank YoU for the constant weeks of convenience at ur inconvenience that i may enjoy the grace i've been promised n warm milk n ocassional talks that we've had before drifting off to sleep..

thank You for the simple friendship n times when we had to scrimp n save juz to get a coloured drink..

thank ewe, for simply being ewe. wouldn't have wanted it any other way..

n last of all, thanks to God for having given me everything n all the love n care that i never really deserved..

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I’m dreamin' of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know
And anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it’s all said and done
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

3 Doors Down

What A Mess!

The loss of mystery has led to the loss of majesty.

The more we know, the less we believe.

No wonder there is no wonder.

We think we've figured it all out.

Strange, don't you think?

Knowledge of the workings shouldn't negate wonder.

Knowledge should stir wonder.

Who has more reason to worship than the

astronomer who has seen the stars?

Than the surgeon who has held a heart?

Than the oceanographer who has pondered the depths?

-Max Lucado-

bashful brilliance

beautiful ain't it? like d sun's peeking thru the leaves..

moment captured but soon to be lost..

tAke fLight wiLL yOu?

i simply HAVEN'T got the time to read any other fren's blogs cept for those written by jinx, em, carm n matt. argh.. so so so tired..

hmph..

maybe u'll simply never noe rite? it's ok really.. fine by me..

wah..

incoherent piyo..

special People, special Me

to sum up, i've literally made myself fit to be labelled a movie buff. 3 movies in d previous 2 days?! hah, let's recap.. corpse bride on friday evening with jinx, andy lau's wait till u're older on sat evening with chia ying, n i watched the myth by myself sat morning too. well i do tt once in a blue moon. wad a weirdo i hear? haha oh well.. when i'm sure no one's gonna watch it with me n i was at the rite place at the rite time, so wad the hell? incidentally those who were in d cinema were all like me. think there were abt 6 of us. haha.. annual union of the lone rangers.

anyway so glad jinx is back from the U.S man, been away for so long. heard abt some of her experiences, quite amusing.. happy for her.. oh she got me something that's from guatemala called trouble dolls. 1 for each of my troubles a day. altogether there r only 6, so i'm only allowed to haf 6 troubles a day. hehe.. hope i dun haf to use any of them okies? thanx babe, love ya :)

perhaps it's due to the nature of the school i'm working in, i've been getting increasingly interested in things having to do with special education and people with special needs. met up with chia ying (one of the teachers in grace orchard school) n went for the very special children's arts exhibition at atrium@orchard at plaza singapura. it amazes me how well they can express themselves thru their bold strokes of colours. 4 of our students' works were displayed there too, n i think they were quite impressive. actually felt some sort of pride when i viewed them. then juz this morning i went for the national disability games held at nus. our bball boys played really well n emerged 2nd, quite an accomplishment i muz say, n again a quiet sense of pride welled up in me. although some of them misbehaved, all went well on the whole.

anw when i was at the arts exhibition i realised there was a support group for pple with muscular dystrophy. this was the genetic disorder that my brother was suffering from. when i knew this i kinda felt that, u noe.. that at least there's some sort of association out there helping these pple n i felt really glad. then it juz struck me that having such a close brush with disability in the family was perhaps the reason why i ain't afraid now. wad i mean is that i used to find it absolutely appalling n odd why some pple are simply intolerant of pple with disabilities. or intolerant of anything for that matter. hmm.. can't really get wad i'm trying to say across at this point of time. i'm prolly tired. another day perhaps..

friends.. pls tk care of urselves k? weather hasn't been good n wad with all those diseases n all, do be on high alert at all times. wish i had more time to catch up with everyone. meanwhile stay healthy n happy! praying for You, u, you, ewe, yoU, n yeah.. yOu..

The Ultimate Collector / Consumer

this excerpt was taken from my best fren's blog. some quite interesting points abt myself that i prolly nv knew much abt.. hmm.. didn't really crack my brain enuff to examine wad it's saying exactly though. still, it's worthy stuff to be posted. okies here goes, courtesy of jeannie chan, best pals always ya? :)

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For as long I've known her, Peiyi has been collecting one item after another with relentless determination. From little porcelain cups, to McDonalds' soft toys and even DVD collections. She had to get every single piece and complete every collection otherwise she'd feel quite unsatisfied.

Peiyi, remember I once told you that I'd tell you about what it meant to collect and to be a collector? I did a search on the Net and found the theory that I once came across while I was reading Jean Baudrillard during my Uni days. Here are some key points of his theory based inferences made on secondary sources (if you really want to do Baudrillard justice, you'll have to get hold of his book, "The System of Collecting" and read it.):

--> The collection offers a paradigm of perfection and constitutes a 'system' on the basis of which the subject seeks to piece together his world, his personal microcosm. It is an attempt to gain mastery over an otherwise chaotic reality.

--> Objects, upon being possessed by the collector, stop being defined by their functions and enter the order of subjectivity. Abstracted from its context, each object loses its presentness, displaces its temporality to the spatiality of a fixed repertoire, in which classification substitutes history. In this sense, collecting becomes an act of enclosing the object in such a way that its context is abolished in favour of the synchronic logic of the collection.

--> A key paradox lies in the act of collecting: The hunt to possess the single object and the serialism of amassing more and more objects.

--> The acts of collecting generally depend on a form of consumption, but a form in which the product is carefully preserved, not used or used up; on the other, they are clearly acts of production, the making of the collection per se, the creation of a certain order. In an era when it is difficult to manifest one's individualism through fashion (consumerism-as-usual) and when few Americans are satisfied to define who they are through the daily work they perform, collecting may serve as an especially satisfying mode of self-definition. The "miracle of collecting," after all, as Jean Baudrillard put in Le système des objets (1968), is that "what you really collect is always yourself." Whether your collection serves as a public display or as a private preserve, it's a form of expression where you materialize that abstract thing called the self, where you can thus see and handle yourself, even talk to yourself, taking comfort in the way objects stabilize you as a subject.

--> The key quality of a collection: The missing piece. The absent element is crucial to the collection process as it interrupts what Baudrillard has called, the 'deadly hypnotic allure of the collection to which the subject otherwise falls prey.' By this, I gather that Baudrillard feels that the act of collecting one item after another can be hypnotic, but the allure of remaining in thr stasis of self-imposed hypnosis is usually held at bay by the fact that the collector will always face the trouble of the 'missing piece', which forces him to break out from his own microcosm to socialize with other people, such as other collectors, in effort to locate the missing element.

*Note: Jean Baudrillard was a French philosopher who wrote extensively on consumer society, consumption and commodification.

indifference

when it's right there in front of u.. it appears to haf adopted traits of invisibility.. u overlook it's existence.. u ignore it's efforts.. u simply ride on when it passes without so much as any hint of acknowledgement.. instead u hanker after the aloof n what's miles out of your universe.. u're bothered when u stretch for the unreachable n u fall short of it by far..

such is the irony of human nature..

you're beautiful

some pple haf sad lives don't they? beauty flees at the sight of them.

Nowhere to run

haf tried once again to challenge the fragility of life. i almost died a brightly lit death on lantern nite. thank you God for keeping my puny lil heart alive till now. nevertheless it was adrenaline rush fun. thereafter an extremely kindhearted man drove a bunch of crazy birds all the way to the doorstep of their intended destination. wad a nice soul eh? 'qia' him coffee next time i see him haha..

i realise we must always remember to give thanks no matter wad. to always be appreciative. lest anything untoward happens to whoever or whatever ominous crops up or wherever becomes no more. before time runs out so abruptly u wun even know wad hit u. in the past i was a thankless person n didn't even noe it. i guess as we all grow n experience different pple n encounters our perception n values undergo fine tuning. thank God for those who haf taught me :)


I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

那女孩对我说

心很空　天很大　云很重
我恨孤单　却赶不走
捧着她的名字　她的喜怒哀乐
往前走　多久了

一个人心中只有一个宝贝
久了之后　她变成了眼泪
泪一滴在左手　凝固成为寂寞
往回看　有什么

那女孩对我说　(说我)保护她的梦
说这个世界　对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我　但是她并不晓得
遍体麟伤的我　一天也没再爱过

那女孩对我说　说我是一个小偷
偷她的回忆　塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由　只想背着她的梦
一步步向前走　她给的永远　不重

黄义达

this empty street

this sucks. not so much the ultra boring n over-rated mid autumn fest at hwa chong. not the lousy n possible stale almost inedible food which induced me to tears towards the end. not the goodness knows how bad knee injury i incurred. not the police incident. not even the constant sniffing i had to withstand throughout the nite.

it's ewe.

n now as i sit here typing this miserable entry in the most sickly state i doubt if this even comes close to how i felt when realisation hit me.

pls enjoy ur colours then. and leave me be.

xIn fu

warmly prepared milk might make me slp better sometimes.. juz for that minute i felt so pampered.. barely a fleeting moment though.. thank u for that :)

do ewe u get it when i say "u always look but u nv see"? guess not.. cuz if otherwise i wldn't still be running ard in circles here..

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away

Green Day

mO mO

at poon's house now.. hmm.. wad to say wad to say? i seriously lack slp but am not getting any. cannot even make myself lie down.. haha.. bleah..

had this camp in sch.. stayed over to help out n all.. dere was bbq n movies n games.. bbq banana is the best!!

hands so tired.. chaos..

loveLy

u noe wad.. i think i haf a problem.. it's called unearthly slping hours. wait, or better yet, eternally awake disorder. haha.. catchy huh..

incidentally there's juz this much inside waiting to burst out. ironically though, being elusive is the only way in which to keep myself sane. am i the most confused person alive or wad? still i always know there's a certain someone who will beat me in that area hands down. u noe who u are.

i juz read this off an envelope on jeannie's table. "desperation is the mother of inventiveness/creativity." bravo.

oh whiskey's put on so much weight! whiskey the cat i mean hehe.. 1.5 times her previous size i swear! u juz see her all the time jinx, that's why u nv noticed la! but she's still the cutest meow ever.

aunt's going back to hong kong in a few hours time. hope i dun cry. i prolly will anyway. argh.. time's so not on my side. think that will be all. may i get to see ewe :)

quOte

so i guess it's just best not to love at all right..?

Smooth sailing

You're not entirely comfortable around each other right now, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. Friendships need to change and stretch and grow. Perhaps one of you is a little itchy in their own skin, doing some necessary evolving and requiring a little space in which to do it; maybe you're each exploring new acquaintances or interests, stuff you want to keep mostly for yourself for a little while. Keep your lines of communication open -- they may not be crackling now, but they will be again.

uPdaTe

it's been a busy week.. got this job at grace orchard sch.. no personal usage of sch computer whatsoever says it all.. first time i'm online for days. super busy can.. but it's ok.. the pple r nice.. to me.. n that's important yeah..

back in contact with jeannie already :) it's great to be. thanx for calling me babe! n let's not think abt the dying wish anymore k? changed my mind wad.. life's gotta be great somehow, wadeva freak things come along.. tk heart n press on ya? do it for me la.. haha.. if this works for u :)

my aunt's back from hongkong n only stayin for a couple of days so gotta squeeze wadeva time i haf for her man.. generally my week went fine.. met buiby for dinner on mon.. forgot wad i did on tue.. went for cell grp on wed.. had senior junior game at sa on thur, which we played for hrs n won 142-111 followed by a sumptuous dinner at ikea.. fetched my aunt from d airport on fri.. did d usual stuff on sat.. church, shopping with aunt, n a huge steamboat dinner today.. phew..!! all in a week's work.

so full now.. gotta leave for home soon.. prolly hafta ot tmr n tue.. plenty of stuff to prepare for teachers' day celebrations bleah.. so much for my plans to watch march of the penguins.. oh well.. nvm.. can look at the snapshots of a certain dubious mr penguin in my aunt's phone.. haha.. darn farnie.. tata~!

Pro-Det-Si-Bu-Sa

aiya!! junyang is out of project superstar! sigh.. cannot believe it. tsk tsk tsk.. unfair la.. i'm so gonna protest!! kelly had better win. she's the best.

heaven in a wild flower

i hope to be an encourager :)

天堂

牵着你在天空飞翔 这样看世界不一样
有了你在身旁笑的脸庞 世界或许就这么宽广

忽然就忘记了慌张 人海之中你最明亮
无意间的影响 渐渐扩张 你丰富我 生活感想

何必寻找所谓的天堂 原来我因为你 不想再去流浪
情愿平凡 不拥有一切也无妨 有了你在心上 依然是天堂

光良

blah..

it finally rains.. think it has held on since yesterday when plans were being made for an evening of bball. i thank you God :)

wanted to play till i dropped haha.. but cannot la.. hafta make my way home. sigh.. mom's gonna be around everyday now.. really need a new place to stay man.

blah blah blah blah..

blah blah blah blah blah..

tt's it. chaos.

loving me loving you

i'm so making a jab at u!! hope u get it hehe.. :)

the week flew by n before i noe it, i had rocked at the stream of praise concert, the ny alumni dinner's over, my heels hurt so much more n i'm still running around in circles. there there.. settle down, settle down now.. wish i had that in mind ages ago. oh well..

i dun feel at all that good ya noe. yeah ewe.

bad news from xdz, they lost to anderson sec yesterday. shoot! they shd be playing rgs at this moment, hope they win it today. cuz if they dun they're gonna be out. sucks. ominous feeling. this really sucks big time cuz rgs is too darn good. argh.. crossing my fingers. whatever the outcome i'll make sure i'm down for their match against nan chiau, final or not..

jasmin the ka-long kia's gonna haf her oral soon. hope she does well.. spent so much time giving her tips leh.. jiayou ka-long..

shall be off now. lotsa stuff to do. n lots not to do. la la la la la..

Cannonball

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Damien Rice

i waLk aLone

i was trudging along under a block of flats today. when i saw some teachers with a bunch of kindergarten kids. the tiny tots were geared up in gloves n all, every pair of hands holding on to this rope in wide-eyed anticipation, apparently preparing for a game of tug-of-war.
wish i was one of them.

somebody please save me from myself.

Cuppycake

You're my Honeybunch Sugarplum
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin
You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums
You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love You so and I want You to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to You
Because You are so dear

-Some Baby-

:)

it feels great to be high.. did ewe noe?

aT Odds

different treatment AGAIN.. everytime.. without fail..

wake up your idea already my dear girl.. don't you EVER get it? you're just ain't the same.

and NEVER will be. period.

high

everytime I try to fly, I fall..

wHim

it's not so much the fact that i changed..

you simply didn't..

pitter patter

weather's great for sleepin in if u ask me, but i feel extremely sucky cuz i'm stuck at work with so many things to do when all i can think abt is my 'at times' comfy bed. bleah bleah bleah.. can't complain though, pple here r really nice, plus i get to sit around alot when i'm free of work n money still comes in. wad more can i ask for? wad a slacker :)

was on my way to sa after work yesterday for a secret mission one on one training session when it started pouring chickens n ducks n geese like nobody's business. got stuck at the bus-stop juz outside the school for abt 15 mins can. darn. then some councillor who was escorting people out was nice enuff to lend me one of the many umbrellas he had in his hands. apart from keeping my upper body quite dry however, the apparent protective tool with which i was employing did nothing else to make me feel secure. reached the hall in the most drenched state ever. dripping jeans n squishing shoes did NOT make me feel any better. not at all. not when i was looking forward to playing some bball la.. haven't done that in a while. oh well.. had to make the best out of a bad situation. girls n guys had combined trg so i ended up aiding alice n shirlaine in a supervisory role if that's wad one calls it. the juniors' enthusiasm helped lots too.

after trg emily came by to fetch alice n i joined them for dinner at bugis village. as i was telling em, we fulfilled our previous plans for meeting up in the most unknowing manner, which was great, no need to rack our brains for extra decision making. u noe.. the usual.. meet where.. meet when.. meet who.. yupz. had a nice chat with them.. talked abt everything under the moon.. about pple.. about the past.. about the present.. about the future.. all rolled into one. enjoyed myself.. then i forgot i had to call kaiyun back.. oops.. not good! make it up next time babe..

oh u noe wad.. it's lirong's birthday today. so i sent her a msg. juz wanna be nice u noe..

me: hey there. happy birthday to u.
lirong: Thanks. glad u rem.

erm...?? well.. haha.. okies shall keep some comments to myself..

i wanna play ball!! someone pls ask me out for a game will u? oh btw there's this And1 under 25 3 on 3 comp coming up.. cheryl audrey n kalai gonna form one team: feng xiong hua. qiangsters team lor haha.. hope they win. i will be their most ardent supporter :)

Yellow

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah they were all yellow

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

It's true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

Coldplay

gAwd

do i think i juz realised why wad's been bugging me has been bugging me all this while?

i need closure..

there..

i've said it..

believe it..

*flashy flash*

stalker
1: someone who walks with long stiff strides
2: someone who stalks game (or people, in my opinion)
3: someone who prowls or sneaks about; usually with unlawful intentions

based on my knowledge n understanding of the person in question, i strongly believe he's all of the above. haha.. ok he doesn't so much as walk that stiffly, but considering the fact that i dun like him at all, he could be fleeting across a room in the most gracious manner n i'll still scrunch my face in grimace. biased wad.. dun blame me if i can't help it. he's still a stalker no doubt.. n he cld be the worst of the lot. i pray for his transformation.. in exchange for ur peace of heart..

beguiled of strength

at kalai's house now, juz woke up from a really fitful slp, dunno why.. maybe it's d weather.. but it's nice n cooling though.. hmm.. oh well..

friday was a busy day.. went to sa to ref the games agst girls' n guys' thai teams in the morning, stayed ard to play some ball with shirlaine who's back from aussie, then went home to wash up n prepare to meet up with cell's sub group for dinner at bottle tree village, which was way, way into the heart of sembawang.. but that's a cool place i tell u, nice scenic view n wonderful ambience. not forgetting abt the scrumptious food. stuffed myself so full man haha.. enjoyed the entire session a lot, with all the singing n sharing after dinner.. kinda bonded with the pple a bit more, juz 7 of us. looking 4ward 2 the next one :)

went back with kl n set out to support kaiyun's soccer game agst sa early next morning. didn't realise i was so tired both physically n mentally.. almost cldn't wake up despite kl's constant attempts to rouse me from my slumber hehe.. anw sa quite qiang man.. haha.. well so tt's y hci lost, hope ky's not too upset still..maybe we'll get to watch her next game agst vjc. hmm.. feeling a lil hungry, think i'll go find something to eat.. :)

He's Everything To Me

In the stars His handiwork I see
On the wind He speaks with majesty
Though He ruleth over land and sea
What is that to me?

I will celebrate Nativity
For it has a place in history
Sure, He came to set His people free
What is that to me?

Till by faith I met Him face to face
And I felt the wonder of His grace
Then I knew that He was more
Than just a God who didn’t care
Who lived away out there

And now He walks beside me day by day
Ever watching o’er me lest I stray
Helping me to find that narrow way
He’s everything to me

breeze right through yOu

wad do u noe.. i'm back in astute office cuz there's more testing to do. came back alone though, cuz only 1 person is needed n min min was nice enuff to let me do it. extra income ma haha.. this time there's a lot more to do. not so much testing but rather lots of web admin n word document based stuff to handle. editing of nets user manuals alone is giving me a headache.. so much to do so much to do!! bleah.. well well.. cannot wait for weekend to come again haha..

went to watch the days of noah last sat after ny trg with kalai n (well.. wad do u noe) my granny n mom! haha.. odd combi i might say.. but they got the tics for me so why not hehe, super cheapo.. :) anyway it was quite a huge project. but i felt the whole activity itself in its entirety wasn't quite substantial enuff. still.. it was indeed a miraculous phenomenon. so many evidences to prove the ark's n flood's existence and authenticity. cool..

had dinner at maxwell market after that n then both of us shopped ard in chinatown for quite a bit. bought this really interesting 'tiny metal ball rolling ard in a wooden box with many tiny holes' game. so tough man. but i completed it! hehe.. chicken feet.. i'm good aren't i?! cheerios :)

rainy day..

i'm becoming such a no lifer! haha.. was home after work yest.. no bball in the end.. actually managed to catch the superstar thingey man.. n i suppose i'm going home again today.. weekend, on a friday evening n i'm so free.. wah piang.. well at least i get enuff rest for my busy day tmr huh.. oh well.. wadeva.. la la la la la.. i'm off soon..

wad's up doc?

think i dun hafta visit the doctor already.. i feel so fine.. clear lungs n fresh air.. never been better!! woohoo!!~~

stiLL waTerS

sigh.. min min ain't here today.. she's sick.. hope she gets well soon man. well the weekend is approaching n i'm really looking forward to it. cuz that means d end of my part time stint at astute is nigh :) come to think of it this week whizzed by really fast. let's see.. gave jasmin english tuition on monday, met up with cy for fantastic 4 on tuesday (really cheap 5 bucks!!), had bible study n cell grp on wednesday, n now here i am, it's thursday! might be goin to play ball later. that aside, so that means friday's coming!! yay!! can't wait.. haha..

feeling so ecstatic all of a sudden cuz i juz completed the final testings i had to do n i'm pretty ahead of time. the rest haf all gone for lunch n i'm here, juz relaxing n surfing net.. hmm.. maybe if they haf more program testing i could come back next week.. dun mind d extra cash really.. while i'm still waiting la.. haha.. ok we'll see..

wonder how the gyss girls will fare in today's match. it was kinda demoralising when they played rgs i noe.. but hey.. no matter wad u're still a good coach alrite? jiayou my fren..

anyway, is it me or has everyone been like so stressed lately? stressed or burdened or tired or whatever. no matter wad i noe things will turn out fine eventually. cuz d sudden feelings of responsibilities might seem somewhat strange.. prolly to u.. or even to others who might voice that out.. for they might not understand.. but so long as u noe there's a purpose for u in it all, u'll do fine. looking great! keep it up yeah? :)

"As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the person."

Joint Horoscope

Two heads are better than one, and your combined brainpower now could run the lights in Times Square. What are you going to do with all this luminous intelligence? Interestingly, it's accompanied by social skills that are approaching genius level. Don't be surprised if you learn something amazing and new about each other -- and don't be surprised if you start planning something both spectacular and spectacularly smart for yourselves and the lucky members of your social circle.

~~ewe were always on my mind~~

wOndeRwaLL

my weekend was pretty enjoyable. filled with activities.. till i haf no time to see a doctor. haha.. someone's gonna kill me. or i'm gonna do that to myself first cuz i'd have died of pneumonia from all that coughing.

so i met kalai n went to play ball at hke after work on fri. didn't get to play long though cuz dere was teakwondo later in the evening. spent some time watchin the cute lil kids that were in the program. they looked like they could be really lethal man.. give them like 10 years haha.. headed to watch match at yuhua after that, where some weird dude with funny post shooting hand signs n awkward running really gave us the stitches. guffawed non-stop i shd say.

helped out at church tuition on sat morning, had lunch at kalai's house after that, then went play ball at ny till my feet had 3 blisters, followed by playing some more ball at ccab till my feet had 3 bigger blisters.. ouch! but it was worth it. haven't played lidat in a while. hehe.. shiok! had dinner at prata cafe, went back quite late n dozed off almost immediately after hitting the bed. haven't slept lidat in quite a while too. but then again, i usually slp well in this comfy house. thanks :)

sunday was tha same but enjoyable all the same. some incidence took place during service which got me quite worried but everything turned out fine eventually. then i had my bible study too. hope i remember wad i always haf to do or not do yeah? (",) watched the youth cup finals later on in the evening. not too exciting though.. ended up with the same results for both guys n girls - comb red champs. during the guys' match however i had my load of insane crappiness from 2 crazy birds sitting on my left. namely sheahlin n kalai. put them together to watch a game with ronny in it n the result is disastrous. thanks so much for the entertainment though. kinda made the match slightly more bearable.

peefee terrorised

sometimes i really cannot fathom how there can be so much rage among pple. check out the recent bombings in london. few tens dead n few hundreds wounded. dun the terrorists haf loved ones too? i suppose they sit ard all day doing nothing but plan n carry out attacks n what nots. ok.. actually that's like their life. their sole greatest ambition: live by lawlessnes n to create mayhem n turbulence where pple gather, big fat bonus if many r killed. sigh.. we are indeed getting so much closer to that time. the time where everything will end. scary thought.

well the long awaited weekend is finally here but i hardly feel like celebrating. i do wonder why. perhaps it's d sudden weak stomach, or maybe i feel depressed abt this piece of terrorism news. haha.. am i?

p/s pls dun tk that tone with me.. i hate it.

BE PATIENT

A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck.

The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment.

When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.

When the boy woke up from the surgery and saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"

The father went home and committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones and hurt feelings often can't.

Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

no boo hoo..

thot i was gonna get well soon.. guess i was wrong.. it may well be due to the awfully numbing cold air conditioning they have over here at astute. welcomes me into its loving arms everyday. that's y i'm still sniffing n coughing away like crazy.. with a tad bit of breathlessness to top it off. bleah.. gotta go see doc soon. prolly over d weekend i suppose..

xdz having a match with dunearn 2day, wish i cld be there.. sob sob.. but working's good.. it feeds! hehe.. beats loafing ard doing nothing all day i reckon. hope i get the answers i've been waiting for real soon though.

had cell group last evening. pretty nice time of sharing n learning. was a lil nervous at first. haha.. haven't had that feeling in a long time. but loved it anyway. got a free ride home too. juz when i thot i saved so much time frm travelling n all.. shi mian zheng caught up with me again. maybe i really do haf a problem.. hmm.. hope i figure out wad it is.

could it be a result of watching too much friends?! hey but wait.. i watch friends because i can't slp, not vice versa rite? i believe so. hmm.. either way it's an awfully good way to destress.. not that i haf much of that.. but still good. am i rambling? haha.. omg.. fingers turning purple.. gotta give them a warm water treat.. hiak hiak.. that's all! :)

-i am ewe-

perhaps i do not notice you enough to know you are always there..

perhaps you give me so much i find i cannot breathe..

perhaps it takes much more than consciousness to realise everything that happens around me..

perhaps.. just perhaps..

would you seriously contemplate my awareness.. really??

work week

juz got this temp job at astute thru liangmin. quite cool, basically we juz sit ard doing nothin much most of the time. well it's only like d 2nd day heh.. of course when i feel the prick of my conscience i start to remember how i'm supposed to list access profiles, log in as administrator n blah blah blah.. haha.. so mean. ok after this i'll conscientiously focus on my job k. love my life??

anyway i kinda decided to tk up the teaching course in nie. but i'll hafta wait for their reply of course so it's gonna tk some time. heard it's not tt easy to get in. oh well.. wherever God leads. anyway i really love church. making me think alot. yupz. n love everyones that come with it too.

kalai came with me to play mj with carmie, foong n jas last friday. thot it wld be weird inititally but it went well haha.. glad. i'm so gonna quit mj already. had enuff.. for now at least. muz get well first :)

mean beans

human beans r pretty weird sometimes.. they think they dunno wad they wan when they're already doing wad they wan.. cuz when they're doing that, they feel they wan something else.. weird dun u think?! haha.. who the hell am i talkin abt?! :)

waLk of Life

Sometime during last week I took a really long and peaceful walk down to a place I have always dreamed of visiting ever since I was a little girl. With someone who, just perhaps, had more in common with me than I could ever have imagined. It was nothing short of insightful and heartwarming as it turned out. Might have been what one describes as the nonsensical chatter in the wee hours of the morning, with the constant companion of the lulling wind, and even occasional drops of spirited water, but lessons were learnt nonetheless.

In the days to come, when I might stop remembering to count my blessings many a times, I hope I will recall this place, this peace, this sharing.. and realise I am indeed blessed. It was great.. I thank God for you.. :)

Untitled

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
And life goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
And life goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
And life goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

-Simple Plan-

That's What Friends Are For

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Ohh That's what friends are for

-Memoirs-

Grief is a most peculiar thing; we're so helpless in the face of it. It's like a window that will simply open of its own accord. The room grows cold, and we can do nothing but shiver. But it opens a little less each time, and a little less; and one day we wonder what has become of it.

trinity

my heart...

my mind...

my soul...

burdened... but with the very thing that alleviates pain...

would ewe know...?

forgive seventy times seven

went to church with kalai on sunday. it was chinese service so it took a bit of getting used to initially. den guess wad.. the message was on forgiveness. Peter asked if forgiving someone for 7 times is enough. n Jesus said not seven times but seventy times 7 times. so it actually means infinite times cuz u dun tk it literally see..

it has to be a sign. for me that is. haha.. it's a lesson on 饶恕.. how apt. well.. i can do that can't i? learn to control my temper too. it's a start. i shall try to remember.

took d xlboys' game agst rivervale vista on monday. they won with a score of 73-34. cld haf done better but on the whole it was quite a good game. juz hope they enjoyed it. lots of silly comments here n there tt i cannot keep a str face to.. my power not as high as marc man.. anyway i'm proud of them. juz feel it's so wasted cuz we cld haf entered 2nd round if they had bucked up earlier. gotta work harder then..

been going out alot these few days.. but i'm just too lazy to blog abt it.. been hanging out with kalai, min min, peilee, cheryl, kx boys blah blah.. tt's all then haha.. bleah..

..untitled..

didn't i say that it would mean alot to me if u were there? well thanks..

we played like shit for our last match. or rather i played like shit.

think i'm in my incoherent state again.

why do i always get different treatment? i hate it. stop it already.

anyway no more matches.. no more problems. but i'm still sad..

see.. told u i was incoherent.

ok enuff of all this.. i've had enuff..

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led the kx youth boys for their game agst pierce sec today at aljunied. it was cool, they played pretty well n beat them with quite an impressive score of 69-19. finally i see some proper moves n defence. although there's still much room for improvement, i'm happy that they managed to actually show wad they can do on court. hope they perform even better in d next game. marc will really be away this time for dades' game in tpy. jiayou ba everyone..

please grant me wisdom n strength.

接受

彷佛上一分钟 你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空
却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底是什么内容

彷佛已经自由 下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷

我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重 诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由 剩下的那些感动 能记得多久

梁静茹

mumbLe muMble..

u just couldn't wait rite.. sigh.. maybe i was juz grumpy.. argh..

met up with carmie n foong briefly yesterday b4 i went 2 support kx youth match. we were shopping ard in jp 4 foong's shirt when we saw ecstasy walk out of this shop with her 'someone'. haha.. even though i kinda like knew it quite some time back, it was still kinda weird picturing them hand in hand.. n we just bumped rite into them. haha.. well i'm glad they're happy :)

we sat down in mos burger after tt n the 3 of us had this really serious discussion on star wars matters.. ok la it was stupid.. but undoubtedly rated highly on the funny list. haha.. do this again soon ya? loved the light sabre part hehe..

the kx vs gryphon (a) n kx youth vs new city games were played quite badly. they lost badly to teams whom they clearly could win. nothin much for me to say there.. it was really disappointing. guess there r really many things to brush up upon. hope they work harder now..

nothin much left to say. will be playing our last women's league game for the year later in the evening. agst ling yun youth.. kinda sad n all.. but it was a good season for all of us i shd think. i'm so glad everything turned out well.. may we finish up with a bang.

hmm.. it would mean an awful lot if u were there, so i hope u'd go :)

what else can i ask for.. ewe inspired me to scale greater heights..

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使

hehe.. guess wad.. was the ultimate babysitter yesterday.. brought cheryl's lil sis celine, lil bro shawn, n lil cousin joey out 2 watch madagascar together with kalai at causeway point. so u see.. it's super taxing man.. gotta babysit 3 lil kids n 1 BIG kid muahahahaha.. it was extremely farnie la. loved d penguins they're hilarious. n the hypochondriac giraffe too. den kalai insists tt the penguins were the main characters cuz they're farniest.. hmm.. shi meh?! haha.. but they really cute la.. n skipper's so evil looking heh..

took d lil ones home after tt, then we headed for lor ah soo 2 support kx boys youth team agst tungshan. they lost by quite a substantial number of points but think overall i was really happy with their discipline. marc is quite proud of them la, there was at least some good play considering they're quite young n inexperienced as compared 2 d quite 'gigantic' opposing team. hope they do as well as they should for d following matches. hande's dad gave us a lift 2 marsiling.. then kalai went home n i met cheryl 2 play ball at spring court after tt. didn't leave till there was a first bus. haha.. think i'm mad. still haven't slept much.

got a missed call from marc ard 1am while i was there.. n when i called back, he let me listen to the kx youth team boys' loud n painstaking rendition of the whole of 童话. they used his phone to record it while they were still on their way home in the van. even though it sounded really out of tune at certain parts n it seemed as if they were all so shouting the song.. it was touching. dunno why but at tt moment it brought tears to my eyes. yeah.. i cried.. haha.. weird man. cuz i was juz suddenly filled with so much emotion. maybe it's the attachment to the boys. or maybe i juz feel it's so sweet of them to do that for marc. haha.. well.. whatever it was.. it was nice.

gonna meet kalai at bishan now to go support kx boys' game agst gryphon. jiayou ba.. shoot.. i'm so gonna be late.. bleah..

and so it goes...

ok.. so someone sent me this.. so i jus noe there's this intended msg in it all for me somewhere.. possibly everywhere.. but u noe wad.. my heart's juz too numb to even start n try n make anything out of it. so maybe i'm jus being indignant. so maybe i'm jus being plain stubborn. so there. period.

one hell of a read for me though. that's all it is. maybe i'm sub consciously grouchy from the whole lack of slp thingey.. wadever..

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How to Know a True Friend
Adrian Rogers

Did you know that the deepest need of the human heart is for intimacy? That s just another way of saying friendship. Now, I'm not talking about casual acquaintances or false friends, but true friends. Let me give you three marks of a true friend.

A true friend sharpens. He will make you a sharper person, a better person. Proverbs 27:17 says, "Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend." A true friendship will put an edge on your life. False friends dull your life, blunt your influence, and drag you down. Anybody who makes it easier for you to do wrong is not a true friend. One of the true tests of any friendship is asking yourself, "Am I a better person for having known this person?"

A true friend sticks. A true friend is steadfast. We read in Proverbs 17:17: "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." If you want to see who your real friends are, just make a mistake and see whether or not they leave you. Life is like a ship. Some people get on and off board very easily. Some will stay on board as long as everything is sailing smoothly; but let the rough weather come, and they will abandon the ship. A true friend is the one who will stick with you.

A true friend stabs. You say, "I don't want to be stabbed." Well, listen to Proverbs 27:6: "Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful." A friend who really loves you will wound you if it's necessary. That is, he will tell you the truth and won't give you hypocritical kisses when he needs to do a little spiritual surgery on you. Flattery is not true friendship. A true friend cares enough to confront. I'm so grateful that throughout my life I've had those who would put their arms around my shoulders and help me when I've done wrong.

How to Be a True Friend

True friends are built. You don't make them overnight. Friendships are not toadstools; they are oak trees. Jesus said, "...Love one another, as I have loved you" (John 15:12). Now, that's the principle, but let me give you five secrets that come from it. If you will practice these, you will make you a great friend.

Accept. The Bible says in Ephesians 1:6 that God has "made us accepted in the beloved." We all want people to accept us. Jesus accepted the disciples. He said, "Ye have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you..." (John 15:16) Jesus did not accept the disciples because they were perfect but because they needed Him.

Acknowledge. Recognize people. Give them your full heart and attention. When you talk to people, listen to them also. Look them in the eye. Understand that people are important. They're a soul for whom Christ died. When we acknowledge others, we're saying, "You're important to me. I acknowledge your presence and your importance."

Appreciate. I got an e-mail from my son recently. It brought tears to my eyes because he said, "Dad, I'm just so grateful for the heritage that I have. Thank you." I could live six months on that. It didn't take him but a few minutes to write that little message, but it meant so much to me. Folks, you're lying if you say you don't want to be appreciated. Tell your husband, your wife, your children, or your friends that they are appreciated.

Affirm. Appreciation is for what people do; affirmation is for who people are. The Lord Jesus affirmed His disciples over and over again. It doesn't mean you approve of everything a person does when you affirm them. The Bible is full of affirmations, and yet it acknowledges the fact that we're sinners and that we fail. But affirmation is important.

Assure. Assure them that you understand. We all want empathy. The apostle Paul said in Romans 12:15: "Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep." Find a way to let people know that you're sensitive to what they're up against, what they feel, what they're going through. Assure them that you're there, and that, to your limited ability, you understand or you re trying to understand what they're going through.

True friendship is costly. It's not easy to maintain a friendship. Remember John 15:13: "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." And Proverbs 17:17 says, "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." You must be willing to pay the price. But finding a true friend and being one in return is one of the best investments you can ever make.

情人不会忘记 (粤)

(电影"我家有一只河东狮"主题曲)

万一失了忆
就请你来提示我
分手那一幕 事发经过
有否哭过 跌得惨痛么
万一不记得
亦跟你熊熊热恋过
请你讲讲那阵子贪你什么

最恨最亲爱全忘记
我亦决不要遗忘你
生命并没什么可以记
若过去没有喜欢过你
要是我真正沉迷过
我如何可能遗忘你
用一生去受怕担惊
都要喜欢你

万一失了忆
就请你从头让我
想起你的坏 共你的错
至少准我 记得怎痛楚
十分想记得
若跟你原来幸福过
请你讲讲那日称呼我什么

最恨最亲爱全忘记
我亦决不要遗忘你
苦难受尽亦得不到你
未怨过在最初识相你
要是我真正沉迷过
我如何可能遗忘你
或者真相动魄惊心
都要想起你

张柏芝

some things were jus meant to be this way

wahaha.. guess wad.. juz came back from bball with cheryl poon n huiling n her fren at tmn jurong cc man.. time check.. it's like 7.30 am! not really wee hours of the morning la.. but wee enuff i suppose hehe.. think i'm seriously gonna die from a major lack of sleep.. still dun feel sleepy at all now though it seems cheryl's gonna die from exhaustion. hmm.. but she juz had a major game with aljunied last nite wad.. yeah.. anyway her whole family cept her dad (who's away) went 2 support her game can.. how sweet rite! envy those whose parents turn up for moral support.. lucky pple noe? muz appreciate yeah? :)

ny alumni trg resumed as usual saturday. it was really heartwarming to see more n more of d girls come back to just play bball together. huijing n sheah lin joined us. well kalai n i were late cuz we kinda overslept. 1st time i was late 4 trg n it felt really really bad.. wun let it happen again man. went kx trg after tt but didn't see much cuz by d time we reached there they were more or less finished. yupz.. den kl went home with me so i cld get my stuff n go back with her. think my granny super loves to talk to her la. cuz she talked to her non-stop all the while i was bathing n also after tt while i was packing my bag. nag nag nag.. haha.. well ok la.. still can tahan her.

d youth cup for boys has started n kx boys lost their 1st match to leng kee on sunday. hope they dun give up n aspire to do well 4 their next game.

i actually haf so many things tt i wanted to blog abt.. but didn't noe where to really start.. so tired.. n i dun mean literally.. hmm.. another day perhaps.

oh but i'll post up this super nice canto song lyrics. it's the song i've been really crazy abt lately. ah gu burnt it 4 cheryl n it's actually a song i've been trying to find 4 years. hehe.. so happy.. haha.. mad.. blah blah blah.. ok.. that's it.. over..

She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Maroon 5

xIao bAo baO

hehe.. guess wad.. i'm one of the babies! that tickles.. wahahaha.. ;)

i'm back..

hmm.. been feelin much better lately.. think cuz i had a really good talk with my frens tt day after our match with stackers. kat n shanice came to watch my game eh! so honoured man.. was really a morale booster for me noe.. n we won la.. then they waited for me to finish my dinner n accompanied me home. tt's when i realised we haven't met up in such a super long time i miss talking 2 them so much!! my best sisters ah.. i may not always say this to u two but u girls rock my world u noe tt?! :) love ya all so much!!

ouch.. i have one quite big bruise on my left elbow.. think i got it cuz i fell down tt day playing ball at bt panjang.. ya i remember le la.. vesak day.. super aching all over.. i say this like forever hor.. think cuz been playing too much bball with pple i dun like or who dun like me.. bleah.. inflict injuries on myself. too ego la.. i need anger management.. go running more..

slack slack slack.. so shiok.. haha.. incoherence sets in again..

hmm.. ewe juz cheer up la okies?

whoopee

i juz realised i can be the most incoherent person in my entries ever.. how's that?! hmm..

post season

and so today marks the end of the a div finals. of course i was down at the sports hall to catch the action of my fave players.. what else is new rite? the scoreline was like 68-34 la.. double exactly. think on the whole hwa chong did quite about as well as they should. vjc was juz not experienced enough a team to even be on par. n siting got the mvp.. congrats to her!!

the guys' match was so much more exciting though. hci n tjc. tjc emerged the winner with a lead of 7 points. think they deserved it cuz they put up a really good fight agst wad u would call a branded team. haha.. can i call them that? branded team eh.. hmm.. it was a match worth watching till d very last, d game pumped with adrenaline throughout the entire 40 mins.. swell..

think phyllis was like quite sad.. cuz she cried. guess it really feels bad not being able to play at ur final finals game cuz of some stupid injury. ya man.. hope she's feeling better la.. dun like to see her cry.. hope she gets well enuff to play ny alum's last game? think we haf at least 2 more.. hmm.. we'll see..

one other person i noe is sad too.. cuz it's like u play in almost the same team for like almost 6 yrs den now u finally realise this is really it. gotta part ways n stuff.. sucks eh? i noe! but always believe that u all were the best that u all cld be, take comfort in that n hold this close to ur heart k? :)

so tired.. played bball from after watching finals till juz now like 2 am.. gosh!! i muz be crazy.. think i perspired like half a bucket man! didn't noe i cld still withstand tt long la.. having a game agst stackers later on.. hope i dun get bball block again like d last time agst t-net club. it was super sucky.. hate myself. bleah.. think i really need more rest!! when am i ever gonna knock enuff sense into my head to noe tt i actually need 2 sleep??!! wahaha.. gonna slp now.. muz recharge.. rebounds.. box out.. just do it.. swoosh man.. dream..

... ... ...

this sucks. that sucks. i suck. everything sucks. can i be in d shithole any longer? sigh.. to think i had so much hope n vision.. it's abt time i pull myself out man. it's all juz me.. me me me.. nothin else.. DUN even bother..

童话

忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

光良

hAve i toLd yOu laTely..

old habits die hard.. haven't been going home often recently.. cheryl's.. audrey's.. bleah.. bad thing? whatever.. not ready to trudge home n gear up for battle now. not at this time at least. transition bet jobs, and blah blah blah.. actually juz this is enuff to bring me constant, unending n recessant gibberish coming from the other bed every night. so i'd rather slp on d streets if need be. it is THAT bad.. so dun judge me, dun reprimand me, dun even try to dissuade me otherwise. be it out of true concern or juz as a good fren to another. cuz u'll nv understand what i haf to go thru. or what i've been thru. i'll really appreciate that :)

monday was semis for a div. went n supported all my xdz for their game agst jjc. was also rooting for cheryl though, so it was quite conflicting in a way. but of course i was supporting 6 hwa chong pple vs one cheryl in jjc so ya.. well hwa chong won so they'd be meetin vjc in the finals this coming friday. shdn't be any problem for them i feel. they shd win. anyway poor phyllis incurred this super bad sprain on her right ankle. swelled up really badly.. so now she's got this bump on her head, a newly stitched up chin, some big bruises on her knees, and a terribly swollen ankle with which she can't walk without d aid of crutches.. so xin tong man! sigh.. she attracts accidents.. poor phyllis.. hope she gets well soon.

almost managed to catch coach carter tues afternoon. but hell no, we didn't in the end.. stupid bus.. oh well.. once again, thwarted plans.. had lunch with kalai instead n shopped ard for a bit. had this really interesting fact finding session in north point popular. we were kinda discussing abt pregnancy hehe.. seriously. cuz we saw this book, well what do u know.. that talks abt pregnancy! all the dos n don'ts n usually unknown facts n stuff. then we drifted off to comment abt abortion blah blah blah.. n i really scared her with 'there r many ways to do it noe, sometimes the doc juz punches d patient a few times str in d stomach then it comes out'. ok.. i cannot believe she actually thot i was serious. well i tried my best to look it but didn't expect to be so convincing?! perhaps it was either that or she was juz clueless. still, it was super haha man.. cuz u shd haf caught the look on her face for a frozen split second of time. classic!! think we laughed the whole place down after that la. ok.. guess it was quite dumb.. yeah.. something worth mentioning here eh..? (",)

oh besides walking ard alot i've also been busy with one other thing. tutoring this notti lil boy called shaun. he's in pri4 n plays soccer n stays in bishan n looks quite cute n is actually marc's cousin. well talk abt good looks running in the family. helping hui to take over while she's in aussie. this boy is any tutor's nightmare. he's got an attention span of like 5 seconds n he talks all the time abt everything under the sun except homework. quite exasperating sometimes. but actually.. i dun mind la haha.. he's still cute. juz a lonely kid. siblings r way much older so there's no one to really talk to or spend time with at home cept for his 2 also very adorable cocker spaniels spunky n brownie. they r the cutest! guess i'm kinda able to relate to him cuz i believe in quite a similar way i was my tutor's nightmare back then too.. hehe.. hope i was of help, cuz he's in d midst of exams now.

so what else is new with me. hmm.. think tt's abt it. a few more matches n i guess we'd be done with women's league for this year. lost d last match agst tampines east. it was a dreadful game. cuz we cld haf won. somehow everything screwed up n we ended up being defeated 9 points. so close. darn. n my left knee n left shoulder r starting to hurt quite badly.

grant me strength please. n peace in my heart.