我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使

hehe.. guess wad.. was the ultimate babysitter yesterday.. brought cheryl's lil sis celine, lil bro shawn, n lil cousin joey out 2 watch madagascar together with kalai at causeway point. so u see.. it's super taxing man.. gotta babysit 3 lil kids n 1 BIG kid muahahahaha.. it was extremely farnie la. loved d penguins they're hilarious. n the hypochondriac giraffe too. den kalai insists tt the penguins were the main characters cuz they're farniest.. hmm.. shi meh?! haha.. but they really cute la.. n skipper's so evil looking heh..

took d lil ones home after tt, then we headed for lor ah soo 2 support kx boys youth team agst tungshan. they lost by quite a substantial number of points but think overall i was really happy with their discipline. marc is quite proud of them la, there was at least some good play considering they're quite young n inexperienced as compared 2 d quite 'gigantic' opposing team. hope they do as well as they should for d following matches. hande's dad gave us a lift 2 marsiling.. then kalai went home n i met cheryl 2 play ball at spring court after tt. didn't leave till there was a first bus. haha.. think i'm mad. still haven't slept much.

got a missed call from marc ard 1am while i was there.. n when i called back, he let me listen to the kx youth team boys' loud n painstaking rendition of the whole of 童话. they used his phone to record it while they were still on their way home in the van. even though it sounded really out of tune at certain parts n it seemed as if they were all so shouting the song.. it was touching. dunno why but at tt moment it brought tears to my eyes. yeah.. i cried.. haha.. weird man. cuz i was juz suddenly filled with so much emotion. maybe it's the attachment to the boys. or maybe i juz feel it's so sweet of them to do that for marc. haha.. well.. whatever it was.. it was nice.

gonna meet kalai at bishan now to go support kx boys' game agst gryphon. jiayou ba.. shoot.. i'm so gonna be late.. bleah..

and so it goes...

ok.. so someone sent me this.. so i jus noe there's this intended msg in it all for me somewhere.. possibly everywhere.. but u noe wad.. my heart's juz too numb to even start n try n make anything out of it. so maybe i'm jus being indignant. so maybe i'm jus being plain stubborn. so there. period.

one hell of a read for me though. that's all it is. maybe i'm sub consciously grouchy from the whole lack of slp thingey.. wadever..

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How to Know a True Friend
Adrian Rogers

Did you know that the deepest need of the human heart is for intimacy? That s just another way of saying friendship. Now, I'm not talking about casual acquaintances or false friends, but true friends. Let me give you three marks of a true friend.

A true friend sharpens. He will make you a sharper person, a better person. Proverbs 27:17 says, "Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend." A true friendship will put an edge on your life. False friends dull your life, blunt your influence, and drag you down. Anybody who makes it easier for you to do wrong is not a true friend. One of the true tests of any friendship is asking yourself, "Am I a better person for having known this person?"

A true friend sticks. A true friend is steadfast. We read in Proverbs 17:17: "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." If you want to see who your real friends are, just make a mistake and see whether or not they leave you. Life is like a ship. Some people get on and off board very easily. Some will stay on board as long as everything is sailing smoothly; but let the rough weather come, and they will abandon the ship. A true friend is the one who will stick with you.

A true friend stabs. You say, "I don't want to be stabbed." Well, listen to Proverbs 27:6: "Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful." A friend who really loves you will wound you if it's necessary. That is, he will tell you the truth and won't give you hypocritical kisses when he needs to do a little spiritual surgery on you. Flattery is not true friendship. A true friend cares enough to confront. I'm so grateful that throughout my life I've had those who would put their arms around my shoulders and help me when I've done wrong.

How to Be a True Friend

True friends are built. You don't make them overnight. Friendships are not toadstools; they are oak trees. Jesus said, "...Love one another, as I have loved you" (John 15:12). Now, that's the principle, but let me give you five secrets that come from it. If you will practice these, you will make you a great friend.

Accept. The Bible says in Ephesians 1:6 that God has "made us accepted in the beloved." We all want people to accept us. Jesus accepted the disciples. He said, "Ye have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you..." (John 15:16) Jesus did not accept the disciples because they were perfect but because they needed Him.

Acknowledge. Recognize people. Give them your full heart and attention. When you talk to people, listen to them also. Look them in the eye. Understand that people are important. They're a soul for whom Christ died. When we acknowledge others, we're saying, "You're important to me. I acknowledge your presence and your importance."

Appreciate. I got an e-mail from my son recently. It brought tears to my eyes because he said, "Dad, I'm just so grateful for the heritage that I have. Thank you." I could live six months on that. It didn't take him but a few minutes to write that little message, but it meant so much to me. Folks, you're lying if you say you don't want to be appreciated. Tell your husband, your wife, your children, or your friends that they are appreciated.

Affirm. Appreciation is for what people do; affirmation is for who people are. The Lord Jesus affirmed His disciples over and over again. It doesn't mean you approve of everything a person does when you affirm them. The Bible is full of affirmations, and yet it acknowledges the fact that we're sinners and that we fail. But affirmation is important.

Assure. Assure them that you understand. We all want empathy. The apostle Paul said in Romans 12:15: "Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep." Find a way to let people know that you're sensitive to what they're up against, what they feel, what they're going through. Assure them that you're there, and that, to your limited ability, you understand or you re trying to understand what they're going through.

True friendship is costly. It's not easy to maintain a friendship. Remember John 15:13: "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." And Proverbs 17:17 says, "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." You must be willing to pay the price. But finding a true friend and being one in return is one of the best investments you can ever make.

情人不会忘记 (粤)

(电影"我家有一只河东狮"主题曲)

万一失了忆
就请你来提示我
分手那一幕 事发经过
有否哭过 跌得惨痛么
万一不记得
亦跟你熊熊热恋过
请你讲讲那阵子贪你什么

最恨最亲爱全忘记
我亦决不要遗忘你
生命并没什么可以记
若过去没有喜欢过你
要是我真正沉迷过
我如何可能遗忘你
用一生去受怕担惊
都要喜欢你

万一失了忆
就请你从头让我
想起你的坏 共你的错
至少准我 记得怎痛楚
十分想记得
若跟你原来幸福过
请你讲讲那日称呼我什么

最恨最亲爱全忘记
我亦决不要遗忘你
苦难受尽亦得不到你
未怨过在最初识相你
要是我真正沉迷过
我如何可能遗忘你
或者真相动魄惊心
都要想起你

张柏芝

some things were jus meant to be this way

wahaha.. guess wad.. juz came back from bball with cheryl poon n huiling n her fren at tmn jurong cc man.. time check.. it's like 7.30 am! not really wee hours of the morning la.. but wee enuff i suppose hehe.. think i'm seriously gonna die from a major lack of sleep.. still dun feel sleepy at all now though it seems cheryl's gonna die from exhaustion. hmm.. but she juz had a major game with aljunied last nite wad.. yeah.. anyway her whole family cept her dad (who's away) went 2 support her game can.. how sweet rite! envy those whose parents turn up for moral support.. lucky pple noe? muz appreciate yeah? :)

ny alumni trg resumed as usual saturday. it was really heartwarming to see more n more of d girls come back to just play bball together. huijing n sheah lin joined us. well kalai n i were late cuz we kinda overslept. 1st time i was late 4 trg n it felt really really bad.. wun let it happen again man. went kx trg after tt but didn't see much cuz by d time we reached there they were more or less finished. yupz.. den kl went home with me so i cld get my stuff n go back with her. think my granny super loves to talk to her la. cuz she talked to her non-stop all the while i was bathing n also after tt while i was packing my bag. nag nag nag.. haha.. well ok la.. still can tahan her.

d youth cup for boys has started n kx boys lost their 1st match to leng kee on sunday. hope they dun give up n aspire to do well 4 their next game.

i actually haf so many things tt i wanted to blog abt.. but didn't noe where to really start.. so tired.. n i dun mean literally.. hmm.. another day perhaps.

oh but i'll post up this super nice canto song lyrics. it's the song i've been really crazy abt lately. ah gu burnt it 4 cheryl n it's actually a song i've been trying to find 4 years. hehe.. so happy.. haha.. mad.. blah blah blah.. ok.. that's it.. over..

She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Maroon 5

xIao bAo baO

hehe.. guess wad.. i'm one of the babies! that tickles.. wahahaha.. ;)

i'm back..

hmm.. been feelin much better lately.. think cuz i had a really good talk with my frens tt day after our match with stackers. kat n shanice came to watch my game eh! so honoured man.. was really a morale booster for me noe.. n we won la.. then they waited for me to finish my dinner n accompanied me home. tt's when i realised we haven't met up in such a super long time i miss talking 2 them so much!! my best sisters ah.. i may not always say this to u two but u girls rock my world u noe tt?! :) love ya all so much!!

ouch.. i have one quite big bruise on my left elbow.. think i got it cuz i fell down tt day playing ball at bt panjang.. ya i remember le la.. vesak day.. super aching all over.. i say this like forever hor.. think cuz been playing too much bball with pple i dun like or who dun like me.. bleah.. inflict injuries on myself. too ego la.. i need anger management.. go running more..

slack slack slack.. so shiok.. haha.. incoherence sets in again..

hmm.. ewe juz cheer up la okies?

whoopee

i juz realised i can be the most incoherent person in my entries ever.. how's that?! hmm..

post season

and so today marks the end of the a div finals. of course i was down at the sports hall to catch the action of my fave players.. what else is new rite? the scoreline was like 68-34 la.. double exactly. think on the whole hwa chong did quite about as well as they should. vjc was juz not experienced enough a team to even be on par. n siting got the mvp.. congrats to her!!

the guys' match was so much more exciting though. hci n tjc. tjc emerged the winner with a lead of 7 points. think they deserved it cuz they put up a really good fight agst wad u would call a branded team. haha.. can i call them that? branded team eh.. hmm.. it was a match worth watching till d very last, d game pumped with adrenaline throughout the entire 40 mins.. swell..

think phyllis was like quite sad.. cuz she cried. guess it really feels bad not being able to play at ur final finals game cuz of some stupid injury. ya man.. hope she's feeling better la.. dun like to see her cry.. hope she gets well enuff to play ny alum's last game? think we haf at least 2 more.. hmm.. we'll see..

one other person i noe is sad too.. cuz it's like u play in almost the same team for like almost 6 yrs den now u finally realise this is really it. gotta part ways n stuff.. sucks eh? i noe! but always believe that u all were the best that u all cld be, take comfort in that n hold this close to ur heart k? :)

so tired.. played bball from after watching finals till juz now like 2 am.. gosh!! i muz be crazy.. think i perspired like half a bucket man! didn't noe i cld still withstand tt long la.. having a game agst stackers later on.. hope i dun get bball block again like d last time agst t-net club. it was super sucky.. hate myself. bleah.. think i really need more rest!! when am i ever gonna knock enuff sense into my head to noe tt i actually need 2 sleep??!! wahaha.. gonna slp now.. muz recharge.. rebounds.. box out.. just do it.. swoosh man.. dream..

... ... ...

this sucks. that sucks. i suck. everything sucks. can i be in d shithole any longer? sigh.. to think i had so much hope n vision.. it's abt time i pull myself out man. it's all juz me.. me me me.. nothin else.. DUN even bother..

童话

忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

光良

hAve i toLd yOu laTely..

old habits die hard.. haven't been going home often recently.. cheryl's.. audrey's.. bleah.. bad thing? whatever.. not ready to trudge home n gear up for battle now. not at this time at least. transition bet jobs, and blah blah blah.. actually juz this is enuff to bring me constant, unending n recessant gibberish coming from the other bed every night. so i'd rather slp on d streets if need be. it is THAT bad.. so dun judge me, dun reprimand me, dun even try to dissuade me otherwise. be it out of true concern or juz as a good fren to another. cuz u'll nv understand what i haf to go thru. or what i've been thru. i'll really appreciate that :)

monday was semis for a div. went n supported all my xdz for their game agst jjc. was also rooting for cheryl though, so it was quite conflicting in a way. but of course i was supporting 6 hwa chong pple vs one cheryl in jjc so ya.. well hwa chong won so they'd be meetin vjc in the finals this coming friday. shdn't be any problem for them i feel. they shd win. anyway poor phyllis incurred this super bad sprain on her right ankle. swelled up really badly.. so now she's got this bump on her head, a newly stitched up chin, some big bruises on her knees, and a terribly swollen ankle with which she can't walk without d aid of crutches.. so xin tong man! sigh.. she attracts accidents.. poor phyllis.. hope she gets well soon.

almost managed to catch coach carter tues afternoon. but hell no, we didn't in the end.. stupid bus.. oh well.. once again, thwarted plans.. had lunch with kalai instead n shopped ard for a bit. had this really interesting fact finding session in north point popular. we were kinda discussing abt pregnancy hehe.. seriously. cuz we saw this book, well what do u know.. that talks abt pregnancy! all the dos n don'ts n usually unknown facts n stuff. then we drifted off to comment abt abortion blah blah blah.. n i really scared her with 'there r many ways to do it noe, sometimes the doc juz punches d patient a few times str in d stomach then it comes out'. ok.. i cannot believe she actually thot i was serious. well i tried my best to look it but didn't expect to be so convincing?! perhaps it was either that or she was juz clueless. still, it was super haha man.. cuz u shd haf caught the look on her face for a frozen split second of time. classic!! think we laughed the whole place down after that la. ok.. guess it was quite dumb.. yeah.. something worth mentioning here eh..? (",)

oh besides walking ard alot i've also been busy with one other thing. tutoring this notti lil boy called shaun. he's in pri4 n plays soccer n stays in bishan n looks quite cute n is actually marc's cousin. well talk abt good looks running in the family. helping hui to take over while she's in aussie. this boy is any tutor's nightmare. he's got an attention span of like 5 seconds n he talks all the time abt everything under the sun except homework. quite exasperating sometimes. but actually.. i dun mind la haha.. he's still cute. juz a lonely kid. siblings r way much older so there's no one to really talk to or spend time with at home cept for his 2 also very adorable cocker spaniels spunky n brownie. they r the cutest! guess i'm kinda able to relate to him cuz i believe in quite a similar way i was my tutor's nightmare back then too.. hehe.. hope i was of help, cuz he's in d midst of exams now.

so what else is new with me. hmm.. think tt's abt it. a few more matches n i guess we'd be done with women's league for this year. lost d last match agst tampines east. it was a dreadful game. cuz we cld haf won. somehow everything screwed up n we ended up being defeated 9 points. so close. darn. n my left knee n left shoulder r starting to hurt quite badly.

grant me strength please. n peace in my heart.

finally me..

hey to all my frens.. haven't been able to blog man.. no comp no time haha.. juz saying i miss u all.. n tk care.. muacks..

used lizard.. especially u ah.. :)

shit helps

ewe constantly remind me it's not so bad..

Nobody's Child

As I was slowly passing
An orphan's home one day
I stopped for just a little while
To watch the children play
Alone a boy was standing
And when I asked him why
He turned with eyes that could not see
And he began to cry

I'm nobody's child
I'm nobody's child
Just like the flowers
I am growing wild
I've got no mommy's kisses
I've got no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me
I'm nobody's child

No mommy's arms to hold me
Or soothe me when I cry
'Cause sometimes I feel so lonesome
I wish that I could die
I'd walk the streets of Heaven
Where all the blind can see
And just like all the other kids
There'd be a home for me

I'm nobody's child
I'm nobody's child
Just like the flowers
I'm growing wild
I've got no mommy's kisses
I've got no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me
I'm nobody's child

The Beatles

reason

cuz i'm a quitter.. that's why..

hehe.. found it that farnie eh? :)

anyway i'm quitting my job. period.

snippets of life

p: 'hey look.. there's a tree lizard..' p points 2 a tree not far off from where they were standing. d tiny creature moves a lil up the tree.

k: 'there's one..'

p: '..??..' *puzzled* the lil thing runs further up the tree.

p: 'there.. do u see?' p points again.

k: 'that's one la.. where's the rest?!'

p: 'tree lizard! tree lizard! not three lizards!!??'

haha.. there u go.. juz for laughs episode 1. the above story is a true life account. any similarities to anyone life or dead is purely intentional. dedicated 2 those in need of hearing aids :)

where's the silver lining?

i am so...

FATIGUED..

physically..

mentally..

emotionally..

why..??

i dunno wad to think anymore. the things that i used to respect n love have denatured in such tremendous ways there's no stopping it. maybe it was ongoing but i juz didn't see it. now i noe wad u mean carmie. now i know. if only i had seen it coming. or maybe i was consciously resisting coming to terms with it. n it's really getting to me a little. quite a huge amount of 'little' there actually.. the realisation hit as i was sitting alone in my room after a whole day of action, juz reflecting on recent incidents. recent happenings. recent major events. recent friendships. recent anything within my own circle of late. i feel torn apart. i hate this feeling. n ewe still dun get it.

sigh..

will it change?

cheers

hey peeps.. jiayou for tmr's match ya?! hmm.. u noe who u are k.. all jiayou.. i'll watch.. love :)

is it ewe again?

ewe haf no idea do ewe?! :(

thankew

thanks carmie dear :) feeling sucky n sick.. lately always this kind of mood. shd cheer up eh. *cough cough*

sad sad peefee

sigh.. dun think i will be blogging that often anymore.. gotta limit surfing 'non work related' websites cuz lady boss' checking our server pretty often now. bleah.. anyway we lost our match to ling yun. well same old story, played really well 1st half. we got as near as 3 points lead by them. that was where the turning point had to be. but we kinda lost the energy to carry on n blew it.. lost in the end by 22. sigh.. very sad today.. still dunno why really.. jiao lian said we played well la.. hmm.. spending the nite at kalai's place. not in the mood to go back home. sad.. =(