Monday, August 18, 2008

strange things are happening all around.. i really wonder why..

in a thoughtful mode..

Friday, August 15, 2008

Bye Bye

*The song speaks for itself, dedicated to Por Por*

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye [3x]
Bye Bye

And you never got a chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye [3x]
Bye Bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye [3x]
Bye Bye

Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye Bye [3x]
Bye Bye

We will never say goodbye

-Mariah Carey-

sleepLess

guess wad.

i'm still up, doing goodness knows wad.

insomnia muz be creeping up on me.

yet again.

...

Liveliness

wow, it's 1am in the morning! just got back not long ago from dinner and coffee with some of my juniors from sa rugby girls: eugenia, eunice, beryl and xiao ying. yi yi was supposed to join us but she was super busy with work till late into the night so we missed her :(

in a nutshell, we had a really great time catching up. like eugenia mentioned, it all still feels the same. initially i was contemplating whether to turn up as planned cuz i was feeling a tad bit tired but now i'm super glad i made the trip. hope we can meet up again before eugenia flies off for france to meet her beau! haha.. i noe i noe, for studies okies? :)

it was a busy thursday in school for me. started rushing here n there from point of touch down till point of dismissal bell. literally. no wonder e.kwan was commenting that i seemed busy. so anyway i was just telling my dearie jass that "being busy is good!" it means u're alive and kicking! :D so i'm glad u noe.. really glad...

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Depression is a state of mind

hmm.. is it..? questions aside, how do u tell that to someone who's been in a depressed and anxious state for the past few months? besides helping to give a few suggestions on some meaningful activities in which to join, i suppose there was really nothing else i could do. my presence was felt though.

it is starting to occur to me that the complications of human kind go far beyond what the human eye can vision or fathom. something so deep and yet so delicate is bound to be invisible to most. many just choose to whizz by without stopping to realise the implications of the difference that anyone can make, or rather, choose to make.

doo doo doo doo doo.. guess i'm just rambling.. ouch, my knee.. ouch oucH ouCH oUCH OUCH!! pain lah..

Monday, August 11, 2008

on bended knee

my right knee feels weird, it's not bending as well as it should. i hope it's only cuz the bruised part of the bone is causing some stiffness and nothing else. my only fear is that the fall resulted in some impact on my reconstructed ligament. if that happens, i can sue coffee bean for damages but it's not gonna help my knee recover. sigh.. i should have been more observant and noticed the puddle of water. why in the world would the staff leave a huge puddle of water at the entrance?! just as serene said, if the person who fell was an old lady it could have killed her. terrible. hope n hope n hope my knee is fine. *pray*

on a lighter note, the bbq cum fishing trip to east coast park went well, apart from the fact that we got a summon for using our own aluminium try as a bbq pit haha.. quite silly really, should have just booked a pit in advance. anyway there was only 3 of us at first: huda, serene and i. then hamzah came and gave huda a pleasant surprise, how sweet :) luckily he turned up and helped us finish all the food! well done and thanks ham ham!

gotta sleep soon, need to wake up early tmr morning for doctor's appointment. shoulder follow up visit. argh.. this see doctor.. that also see doctor.. old already la..
Basketball: China vs USA
USA defeated China with a score of 101-70 yesterday :(

tough Love

-When somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean that they don't love you-

Sunday, August 10, 2008

spEciaL

had a hearty breakfast with kalai, mama and duck at this hong kong cafe along sembawang road this morning. quite affordable n delicious! yummy!

went to watch the young talents musical in the pm. pillai brought her class, and the teachers who were there included nithi, bee hong, hannah, marilyn and esther k. filip n his friend (forgot wad his name was) went as well. the kids in the production were all quite cute. especially the "leave me alone" boy and the boy who was constantly munching away on his stash of never-ending snacks. the comic relief by some of the older actors was funny too. but i muz say i was expecting a bit more. was telling some of them there was still quite a bit of stereotyping which didn't really appeal to me. all in all it was a good show put up though, clap clap for the effort! btw i met daryl, my long lost fren from sa..! she's working with city harvest community services association who's the organiser of today's event i assume. it's always nice to meet someone u've lost contact with :)

wad followed after that was a cup of terrible cappucino but some delicious donuts at j.co's and a nothing short of huge dinner at tony roma's. *burp*

there's my sunday for u.. :D

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

simply me

-I love not to be loved, I care not to be cared for-

Monday, August 04, 2008

oLd skooL

missed my sabball session today cuz i arranged with cindy to meet up for dinner. it's been 16 years since i last saw her. my goodness how much time has passed since we last saw each other! it was a great catching up session n i'm glad we met up. the next time we'll see each other again is probably at qiushi's wedding. so happy for her too, cannot wait! :)

Think of Excellence

That we should remember this verse in all our endeavours.

"Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, let your mind dwell on these things."

-Philippians 4:8-