jaded

hmm.. haf some time to doodle on my key board since the boss n lady are out for 3 whole days!! they've gone to batam for some seminar/course thingey.. hehe.. kinda relaxing in the office now. went shoppin with this aunty from work yesterday. can get along with her really well, dunno why.. we tk d bus 2 work together almost every morning. if i manage 2 get my butt up earlier that is! we went to this really in place for nowadays' aunties. we went to sheng siong! that's where all d old ones go cheap! cheap! haha.. the prices r really competitive though i gotta admit. so i strolled ard n i bought a new bin! guess i did more shopping than aunty bee lian man! haha..

met up with marc n kalai n xdz after tt at yuhua but it was quite late though. n i hadn't planned on playing ball so didn't bring any change or shorts either. was there as a supporter! haha.. they were playing agst this team with this really irritating ite tampines girl. bleah.. out of point anyway.

i realise i haf been pretty critical of everyone lately. maybe i'm juz being judgemental. i mean towards those i apparently dislike. duh. like the non living thing. yucks! 'it' sucks! glad i dun ever hafta talk to 'it' again. then i dun like this girl. can't stand that guy. sigh.. it's bad i know. but sometimes i juz get so carried away. i suppose it's also got to do with my dampened mood swings lately. many things haven't been going my way at all n i hate it despite knowing there're always reasons for them.

i can't be like You. always so perfect. so flawless. i used to tell myself i shdn't judge. that side of me seems to have vanished altogether the day i realised i was totally betrayed by You. nothing is absolute. thanks to You now i'm sure of that. but then again, do i know where my priorities lie? i'm looking too much into secular stuff. God seems to have faded into the background. it shdn't be this way. n what shd i be doing abt this. maybe if i had more of Him in my life i wldn't be in this state. i shd start going back to church. whee.. all the shoulds n should nots. bleah.

on a much gentler note, i get really crazy when i hang out with kalai n marc. like last nite. haha.. cuz kl's as mad as a deranged bird when she gets started. we laugh all the time abt the silliest things. she makes me laugh at her. marc pops up with the stupidest of farnie comments. i get all the fun. then i'm not so uptight. it's time to really move on.

think i sound rather incoherent. do forgive. blah.

--jaded: worn out; wearied--