where's the silver lining?

i am so...

FATIGUED..

physically..

mentally..

emotionally..

why..??

i dunno wad to think anymore. the things that i used to respect n love have denatured in such tremendous ways there's no stopping it. maybe it was ongoing but i juz didn't see it. now i noe wad u mean carmie. now i know. if only i had seen it coming. or maybe i was consciously resisting coming to terms with it. n it's really getting to me a little. quite a huge amount of 'little' there actually.. the realisation hit as i was sitting alone in my room after a whole day of action, juz reflecting on recent incidents. recent happenings. recent major events. recent friendships. recent anything within my own circle of late. i feel torn apart. i hate this feeling. n ewe still dun get it.

sigh..

will it change?