indifference

when it's right there in front of u.. it appears to haf adopted traits of invisibility.. u overlook it's existence.. u ignore it's efforts.. u simply ride on when it passes without so much as any hint of acknowledgement.. instead u hanker after the aloof n what's miles out of your universe.. u're bothered when u stretch for the unreachable n u fall short of it by far..

such is the irony of human nature..

you're beautiful

some pple haf sad lives don't they? beauty flees at the sight of them.

Nowhere to run

haf tried once again to challenge the fragility of life. i almost died a brightly lit death on lantern nite. thank you God for keeping my puny lil heart alive till now. nevertheless it was adrenaline rush fun. thereafter an extremely kindhearted man drove a bunch of crazy birds all the way to the doorstep of their intended destination. wad a nice soul eh? 'qia' him coffee next time i see him haha..

i realise we must always remember to give thanks no matter wad. to always be appreciative. lest anything untoward happens to whoever or whatever ominous crops up or wherever becomes no more. before time runs out so abruptly u wun even know wad hit u. in the past i was a thankless person n didn't even noe it. i guess as we all grow n experience different pple n encounters our perception n values undergo fine tuning. thank God for those who haf taught me :)


I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

那女孩对我说

心很空　天很大　云很重
我恨孤单　却赶不走
捧着她的名字　她的喜怒哀乐
往前走　多久了

一个人心中只有一个宝贝
久了之后　她变成了眼泪
泪一滴在左手　凝固成为寂寞
往回看　有什么

那女孩对我说　(说我)保护她的梦
说这个世界　对她这样的不多
她渐渐忘了我　但是她并不晓得
遍体麟伤的我　一天也没再爱过

那女孩对我说　说我是一个小偷
偷她的回忆　塞进我的脑海中
我不需要自由　只想背着她的梦
一步步向前走　她给的永远　不重

黄义达

this empty street

this sucks. not so much the ultra boring n over-rated mid autumn fest at hwa chong. not the lousy n possible stale almost inedible food which induced me to tears towards the end. not the goodness knows how bad knee injury i incurred. not the police incident. not even the constant sniffing i had to withstand throughout the nite.

it's ewe.

n now as i sit here typing this miserable entry in the most sickly state i doubt if this even comes close to how i felt when realisation hit me.

pls enjoy ur colours then. and leave me be.

xIn fu

warmly prepared milk might make me slp better sometimes.. juz for that minute i felt so pampered.. barely a fleeting moment though.. thank u for that :)

do ewe u get it when i say "u always look but u nv see"? guess not.. cuz if otherwise i wldn't still be running ard in circles here..

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and everything's all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away

Green Day

mO mO

at poon's house now.. hmm.. wad to say wad to say? i seriously lack slp but am not getting any. cannot even make myself lie down.. haha.. bleah..

had this camp in sch.. stayed over to help out n all.. dere was bbq n movies n games.. bbq banana is the best!!

hands so tired.. chaos..

loveLy

u noe wad.. i think i haf a problem.. it's called unearthly slping hours. wait, or better yet, eternally awake disorder. haha.. catchy huh..

incidentally there's juz this much inside waiting to burst out. ironically though, being elusive is the only way in which to keep myself sane. am i the most confused person alive or wad? still i always know there's a certain someone who will beat me in that area hands down. u noe who u are.

i juz read this off an envelope on jeannie's table. "desperation is the mother of inventiveness/creativity." bravo.

oh whiskey's put on so much weight! whiskey the cat i mean hehe.. 1.5 times her previous size i swear! u juz see her all the time jinx, that's why u nv noticed la! but she's still the cutest meow ever.

aunt's going back to hong kong in a few hours time. hope i dun cry. i prolly will anyway. argh.. time's so not on my side. think that will be all. may i get to see ewe :)

quOte

so i guess it's just best not to love at all right..?

Smooth sailing

You're not entirely comfortable around each other right now, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. Friendships need to change and stretch and grow. Perhaps one of you is a little itchy in their own skin, doing some necessary evolving and requiring a little space in which to do it; maybe you're each exploring new acquaintances or interests, stuff you want to keep mostly for yourself for a little while. Keep your lines of communication open -- they may not be crackling now, but they will be again.